In the past week I have dealt with a few issues, not my own mind you, that forced me to look a my life a little bit and when I did, I saw that the question 'Why' was a question I had avoided answering.
That seems a little vague, please let me elaborate.... When I first got into Lolita my Mom asked why I couldn't have a less expensive hobby. My extended family asked why I wouldn't wear pants like a normal girl. I get questioned by strangers and friends alike. The questions are phrased different, but they all have the same meaning....
'What do you dress like this?'
I finally have answer to this question. Or...I've always had the answer to the question, but it's tended to be difficult and a lengthy explanation, but now I have a simple answer. A true answer. An answer that cuts straight to the heart of the matter...
I dress this way for me.
O.o....that's it? Yes! It's that simple. I get dressed every morning in petticoats and Jumper skirts and I do my hair and pain stakingly apply my make up because I feel beautiful when I do. Not that I don't feel beautiful when I have a down day. I have lots of clothes and not all of them are frilly yet, but when I leave my house to go out to eat with my mom or meet friends downtown, I like showing off a new dress I just acquired or the new socks that match the outfit just so.
My clothes allow me to express the beauty I feel on the inside.
I wear Lolita for myself and no one else!
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Do you have something you do just for you? Do you blend tea to enjoy the way the new flavors marry and compliment one another in a way they never have before? Do you make doll clothes to dress up your doll family and take pictures and put them online in a story like display, just because? Maybe you bake or cook to experience the joy of the first perfect bite or your creation, even if you've made it tons of times before....
What is it that you do for you? What do you do that makes you, you? What do you enjoy that no one can make you give up?